Simply Me

Today, A and S were talking about D and P. Whether D and P are seeing each other remains the biggest mystery, but the fact is they are joined at the hip. S started to say how jealous D is of P and S's friendship. She actually told S to her face that she was jealous of her. A said that it was not just S really. D is jealous of even A and P being friends. 'Its not like we are remaking dostana,' said A. S continued, saying D knows that she and P are like sis and bro. I told her that its not like D is suspicious. Its just that D doesn't like the fact that the two of them are so close. They do share this relationship that is more stable than P and D's volatile relationship after all.

That did get me thinking though. I was stabbed by the bitter knife of jealousy myself... A couple of times atleast that I remember.

When my best friend told me she had a boy friend, I don't know what came over me. I just started to cry. I couldn't stop. She kept feeling worse and worse, berating herself for ever telling me. I still don't know what happened that day. I was ok with her having other friends. Other best friends who were infact not I. But a boy friend? Sharing my best friend with a boy friend was more than I could endure.

A was saying how A1 is jealous of any female looking at her husband for too long. Anyone staring at him is bound to make her head to his side. Like how at mc d's when she caught this girl staring at her hubby, she quickly moved to his side and snaked an arm around his waist. Just to make her claim and ward off the evil eye of this woman lest she bewitch him.

Jealousy isn't a positive emotion and it certainly doesn't do any good. But whichever way you look at it, it certainly isn't the most explainable of emotions.

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What makes you like someone and dislike someone else?

I mean I am good friends with the girl who everyone dislikes… because she is childish… because she doesn’t think before she speaks… because half the time she opens her mouth, her words seem mean… I don’t know why, but she has been my good friend…

The guy the guts of whom everyone hates, I find him more silly than actually dislikable… The guy is too full of himself…but doesn’t that mean he is being childish…

Then there was the guy who talked in an almost condescending way changed as time went on… the girl who was known for her temper has grown quite mild now… I guess because they both matured… The guy whom I found absolutely non-courteous (I don’t know the opposite of courteous) and un-gentlemanly seemed quite sensible after I had met him a couple of times…

I found it amusing when one of my friends tried to turn me against another saying that that the other guy passed comments about me… well to his credit, the guy had said to my face all that he had said behind my back… so I couldn’t care less… So I have nothing against either of these people…

Then why is it that I dislike her? She is never rude… she has never gone out of her way to be unfriendly… if anything, I have never taken time to get to know her… why is it that I can’t find it in me to even try to change my opinion about her? Doesn’t that make me childish? Rashi was quite surprised at my vehemence… Tejaswini, you actually dislike someone? Was her comment…

Sometimes I can’t figure myself out… Am I really being childish? You can’t like everyone, Rashi said… but then why do I dislike this girl so much? Being late is no crime… Amma keeps complaining that I am not punctual… I certainly am more punctual than most of my friends… but then in the land of the blind…

Am I wrong in disliking her? Is something the matter with me?

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