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Saturday, September 26, 2009

Shri Suratkal Krishnaraya 'Mashtrumaam' Shenoy (16th June 1908 - 25th September 2009)

For the past couple of days, I have kept wondering whether I am being bitchy and selfish when I thought that when I get married I want the names of my grandparents to be there on the card; inviting everyone for their granddaughter's wedding. Not late but them being there to bless me and whomever I married. After all they have blessed all their grandchildren, why won't I be blessed with the good fortune of being blessed by my 101 year old grandfather and his beautiful young wife of 89? What could be more amazing than a bond of 75 years blessing a couple starting a new life?

It has been hard to see my grandparents who had lived with us for almost 16 years of my life looking so different now. It was difficult to comprehend that he couldn't hear what I said or that she has turned into something of a rag doll, so frail so weightless. It was difficult to watch Sohananna and Anil Bhavaji bring them downstairs on a chair knowing walking a flight of stairs was akin to climbing the Everest.

Still somewhere you rejoice when you speak with him or hear their voice on the phone. Hearing him say your name thrice in a effort to hear you call out to him as he wishes you a Happy Birthday. Hearing her talk joyfully with you.

Still when you see the missed call on your mom's cell from your mhantu you know it is not to wish you on your birthday once more. Something is wrong. You see your amma's hand trembling when she asks you to call but you can't make yourself dial the number.

You nod your head when she murmurs close to tears that your second love, your dear ajju is no more. You don't cry... you can't cry. Tears seem to have frozen. Slowly a lump forms in your throat but you have been strong for the people around you for so long, that its difficult for you to let the tears fall. You have cried over a bad viva in college and bad CSATs at work... Yet you can't shed tears for losing the person you loved second most in the world.

Shri Suratkal Krishnaraya Shenoy, aged 101 died today of a heart failure. He is survived by his wife, 3 daughters, 1 son, 2 daughters in law, 2 sons-in-law and his grandchildren, their spouses and great grandchildren.

Lovingly called Mashtrumaam by those who have known him from his teaching days was a beloved aanu, cherished ajju and adored taata. A respected and well-known teacher of Kannada at Canara High School, his students still came to visit him when he was in Pune and when he went to Bangalore. With a joy of hindustani classical music, he spent a lot of time listening to music, singing or teaching music. A master at mythology and Hindu parampara, he loved to create quizzes on these favourite subjects.

Losing a son and a son-in-law, this gentleman was still a wall of strength and an idol for his family.
A simple man who ate vegetarian food, walked for exercise and enjoyment as long as his feet could carry him, a storyteller with a smile which could light up a room and a simple joy of life, is someone we will cherish. The joy of travelling, love of family, acceptance is something we all take from him.

I end my post with a simple kiss of love to this man who has taught me and so many around him so much. Shubha ratri ajju. Hope the stars shine brighter with you among them now.


posted by Tejaswini Shenoy at 8:21 PM 7 comments

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Final Destination 4

So finally watched 2 of the 3 sort-of-recent movies I wanted to watch for a while...

Been ages since I have watched a 3-d movie, so Final Destination was definitely worth it... Especially finding that at least one of my friends shares my love for ewwness. Purnima and I definitely shared some laughs and yuck moments watching this movie.

Not for the squeamish, the 4th part takes 'Death has a design' to new gory heights.

While it is icky enough to watch people being burnt in a plane malfunction or squished under a runaway truck or being thrown off a roller coaster gone berserk, this movie has peoples' heads and internal organs thrown at you through the screen.

It is disgusting to say the least but if you aren't the-throw-up-at-the-first-sight-of-blood types, this is definitely a movie worth a watch. Don't go on a full stomach though if you can't stomach this stuff.

Not exactly horror, final destination movies run along the same theme, the lead has a premonition of dying and survives death along with a few others. But since death was their destiny, they can't skip it and have to die; in a predetermined order at that.

You would think people would scream and squirm at the theatre-blood and intestines falling from the sky, strangely though audiences give nervous laughs and giggles when one more of the survivors is burnt alive or has their head cut off.

You would think I am blood thirsty right? Watch the movie, it is great entertainment. Good for a weekend popcorn overdose with your friends.

Tejaswini's verdict *** and a 1/2. The bad ending killed half a star for me.


posted by Tejaswini Shenoy at 12:49 AM 5 comments

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Tag from facebook

Place an X by all the things you've done and remove the X from the ones you have not, then send it to your friends (including me).

Things you have done during your lifetime:
() Gone on a blind date
(X) Skipped school (or college)
() Watched someone die
() Been to Canada
() Been to Mexico
() Been to Florida
() Been to Hawaii
(X) Been to Australia or New Zealand
(X) Been to Europe
(X) Been on a plane
(X ) Been on a helicopter
(X) Been lost
() Gone to Washington, DC
() Swam in the ocean(floated:))
() Seen the Sequoias and/or Redwoods
(X) Cried yourself to sleep
(X) Played cops and robbers
(X) Recently colored with crayons
(X) Sang Karaoke
() Hiked up a mountain
() Paid for a meal with coins only
() Been to the top of the St. Louis Arch
() Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
() Made prank phone calls
() Been down Bourbon Street in New Orleans
() Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
() Caught a snowflake on your tongue
() Danced in the rain-naked
() Been skinny dipping in a pool or a hot tub (Creek)
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
() Been kissed under the mistletoe
(X) Watched the sunrise with someone
(X) Blown bubbles
() Gone ice-skating
(X) Gone to the movies
() Been deep sea fishing
() Driven across the United States
() Been in a hot air balloon
() Been sky diving
() Gone snowmobiling
() Lived in more than one country
() Lay down outside at night and admired the stars while listening to the crickets
() Seen a falling star and made a wish
() Enjoyed the beauty of Old Faithful Geyser
() Seen the Statue of Liberty
() Gone to the top of Seattle Space Needle
() Camped in the Mountains
() Camped on the Beach
(X) Been on a cruise
(X) Traveled by train
(X)Traveled by motorcycle
(X) Been horse back riding
() Ridden on a San Francisco CABLE CAR
() Been to Disneyland OR Disney World
() Truly believe in the power of prayer
() Been in a rain forest
() Seen whales in the ocean
() Been to Niagara Falls
(X) Ridden on an elephant
() Swam with dolphins
() Been to the Olympics
() Walked on the Great Wall of China
() Saw and heard a glacier calf
() Been spinnaker flying
() Been para sailing
() Been snow-skiing
() Been to Westminster Abbey

... and I tag Purnima, Rachana and Nishanth


posted by Tejaswini Shenoy at 8:40 PM 2 comments

Wednesday, September 9, 2009


How do you manage when two of your closest friends can't stand each other???

Does it tear you apart to see two people you love so pretending the other doesn't exist or do you try to help them make up? Do you try to let them fight their own battles or do you want to bang ther heads together to remind them that once upon a time they were good friends... that the quirks that made them enemies they used to like about each other?

How do you explain it when the animosity still lives years later? Can you still summon the same amount of anger that you felt back then when you had fought with someone?

Do you forgive and forget or do memories of anger still eat you up inside? How do you handle the pain of a friend when they know they still want to be friends with someone and it is their ego which keeps them from trying to meet the other half way?


posted by Tejaswini Shenoy at 12:11 AM 1 comments